I feel like I am turning into the person I don’t want to be. I understand when my lecturer, Miss Wani told me not to send my application for the ‘Tenaga Pengajar Muda’ scholarship because she said “you’ll get ‘tied’ with the 9-5 day job and you’ll feel miserable, knowing you, you don’t belong there, artis macam kamu ni free soul”
I believe in doing stuff with Ehsan and Ikhlas, and when doing stuff just by the fact that you have to do it, it is not that rewarding and fun. But yeah, I think my idealistic view of the world is too naive. Working like, office job probably doesnt work that way. I dont know, probably I havent found it it, yet.
I understand when people would settle for less, for a job with less stress, because yeah, stress sucks, and its sucker when you dont know how to deal with it. But they again, you put yourself in this Ezah. Have to put up with it laa. Pi kerja balik kerja like a robot.
Flow je lah Ezzah. Sabar and kuat semangat sat for a bit. You have Allah with you. And people who love you. Life for the, kerja kumpul duit, and give back, set intentions.
Sorry ter-rant, saya stressed out. huhu